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Monday, March 15, 2004
Why Fiona And University Are A Disastrous Combination.
1. Tutorial participation.
I am naturally a rather quiet person. If I am to say something in front of a group of people, it must first be mulled over and considered carefully. I find tutorials hideously intimidating. First of all, they are usually huge, and full of 18-year-olds who are all a lot louder than me. Second of all, (?) I have a very quiet voice. And I mumble. And I get all nervous, and my hands start shaking, and I stutter, and I end up having to repeat myself five times.
2. Asking questions, and having an inquiring little mind.
When I hear information for the first time, I tend to just absorb it, then I will think of questions later. I seem to lack the ability to process the information immediately and be able to ask inspired, probing questions on the spot. This appears to be a huge disadvantage. Maybe I'm just not cut out for the academic world.
3. People, people, everywhere.
There's just too many people. And I have a nasty habit of deciding I don't like certain people, making judgements based on very little information at all. The sad thing is that I often turn out to be right. Anyway. After each class I will scurry away to the library, or to the Botannical Gardens (which, fortunately, are right next door!) to avoid having to talk to anyone. Which makes me feel rather lonely. I realise that it's all my own fault, that if I at least tried to be a bit more outgoing I woudn't have this problem, but I just can't seem to bring myself to socialise. Literally, 'painful shyness'.
4. The Conservatorium in general.
The Conservatorium is very much like the school in Fame. It seems to be all about churning out nice little performers. And therefore it seems to attract showy, diva-type people, who are the opposite of me. The way that they teach harmony and aural perception are very staid, boring, devoid of any creativity. So much so that I cannot see how they are relevant.
5. Insecurity, blah, blah.
I have a belief that, despite the good marks that I achieve, I am basically stupid. Or at least incapable of original thought. This is probably why I clam up in class, because I'm convinced that whatever I say will be inferior and too obvious.
And that's all. I really need to get drunk.
Fiona expressed these musings at
11:46 PM
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Synopsis
The life and times of a girl who likes cake.
The Cast And Crew
Fiona: A genius musicologist with a giant brain, who loves cake, pies and aeroplanes. Captain of Skybed 2.
Rob: Fiona's gentleman caller, also owner of a giant brain, and captain of Skybed 1.
Vanessa: Sister of Fiona, recently returned from a jaunt around the Continent.
Timothy: Friend of Fiona and gentleman caller of Vanessa, currently swanning around in Paris.
Nicholas: Friend of all of the above.
Helen: Platonic wife of Fiona, artist, and senior lecturer.
Mother: Self-explanatory.
Links to Alleviate Your Boredom
www.engrish.com
home.iprimus.com.au/ncarvan/
Other Blogs
Recipe Of The Week: Orange and Raspberry Cake
Ingredients
125g margarine
3/4 cup (165g) caster sugar
2 eggs, or egg replacer equivalent
1 1/2 cups (225g) self-raising flour
1/2 cup (125 mL) orange juice
3/4 cup raspberries. If you use frozen ones, don't thaw them, please.
1.Grease deep 20cm round cake pan, line base with baking paper, sprinkle with sugar.This
helps your cakey to rise, as the mixture clings tenaciously to the sugar as it climbs up the sides of the pan.
2.Beat butter and sugar in medium bowl til all light and fluffy.
3.Beat in eggs one at a time, beating til just combined between additions. Or, if you are using egg
replacer, divide it in half, pretend it's eggs and do the same.
4.Fold in flour and juice, in 2 alternate batches, ending with a flour batch.
5.Fold in 1/4 cup raspberries, gently now..
6.Now, assemble your cakey. Spread 3/4 of cake mixture into your pan, sprinkle with remaining raspberries.
Spread with remaining cake mixture.
7. Bake in moderate oven (180 degrees) about 1 hour. Stand cake in pan 5 min,then cool on a wire rack.
8. Ice your creation. Orange or passionfruit icing would be nice with this one, I think. I usually just sift some icing sugar until I get sick of it, then add enough orange juice or passionfruit pulp to make a nice consistency.
9. Share with your friends and bask in praise (it'd be nice if you mentioned me, but if you don't, I'll forgive you). Or,
consume alone.
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